deep sense of metallic tang in his cigarette
slow senses from the vodka
where's reality?
I feel I've slipped into
the alternate word
someone else's fantasy
not mind
the beat is too mind bending
caught in the rhythm that
dictates my breathing
grab on to his arm, close my eyes
let him bear the weight
too many people
are they really not pretending?
do they find fulfillment
in this endless charade of
tanned skin
mascara and cleavage?
suck deep and quick
get your buzz
get your fix
before the unknown
invades your body
you hate and love its teasing
fingers stirring your blood
give me more it says, find a quiet storm
release your thoughts like ghosts to
bounce off walls
the way home was a loud motor in the open Jeep
whipping wind and tangled tendrils
as I am delivered to my room
we are caught like deer in
flashlights- his hotel co-workers
fake smiles as he plays it cool, my illicit chaperone for the evening
an end to the night
was found in self-realization
a self studious mind journey
that roars in my ears
while I slip into unconsciousness
