Sunday, December 3, 2006

hesitant heart

where is my will
love bends will
its strength is like the will of water
bending and caressing new form
out of hardened regret

when love -it calls for a give and take
how much give before you disarray
your image into a dreaded music box?
years pass, the handle revolves
and all coiled falsities momentum
a leaping and frantic pop! real
self emerges ready to reclaim
and things set into motion cannot be unwound

this power love is
unconditional
laughter bonds like cement
and he has masoned me into
a wall ready to standfast
immovable

when it rains I'm crying
and water loosens the putty- grey
and grainy- such grit in the clouds
the sun, warmth turns to chill
it's march and the snow shakes my
hesitant heart with despondency

deep yearnings for family seed as I
burrow my cheek against his thigh,
the sun-round curve of his soft haired belly
is my satisfaction sighed immense
and complete

time cheats me
no one can answer my riddles
I pause, a sphinx on the crossroad
unaware of the path's direction.  how can
I walk forward with no foot to the
ground (work of my desires)?